102811 Gratitude from the heart.
yes, i came from a broken family. but i never really did feel it. i mean, EVER.
last two days ago, October 26, 2011 was my daddy Boy’s birthday! he is my uncle but he played the part of being my father and there is “literally” no word to describe how thankful i am that we have him.
i would like to thank you, uncle, if ever you are going to read this, (hehe) for showing me two things in this world that most people were not able to experience and are still searching for it in their lifetime. SELFLESS LOVE and UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. the two most important thing that i will for sure keep with me until God knows when.
i have slashed out one of the sentences i have written under my Bucket List. “UNDERSTAND LOVE” and my uncle was the reason why. a person who loves, never put himself first. Thank you.
early this year, while in a mass at a church in Tagaytay, as we talk about Angelo, my brother, reconnecting with our legitimate father, i think i saw how heartbroken my uncle was. though he said its okay for him if that’s what we want to do, but we just have to make sure we are going to be in better hands, then its our choice. Until then, it was still our good that he is concerned about. he has treated us his own children and more, and hearing those words that lacks pride and hatred are just surreal for me. everything he has done for us, he deserves to fight his right to us.But he made clear he will respect whatever choice we do.
then he asked me, “Buti ikaw, di mo hinahanap papa mo?”
that was not the hardest question ive heard. it was in fact, easy for me. what was hard was that i cant seem to compose words how to deliver my answer that time. and before i can even try to explain, he said “AH, siguro kasi lumaki ka ng wala na sya, noh?”
well, that was partly right, but that is really not what i was going to say. But then i answered, “yes. maybe”.
all through out the mass i was thinking about that conversation. and though i have found the right way to say what was really my answer, i couldn’t barge it in out of the blue, it would be awkward.
i haven’t told him my answer, until now.
what i was really aiming to say was that.
“di ko sya hinanap, dahil wala naman akong dapat hanapin. i grew up with a love of a father. a father that never really left. ikaw yun”
thank you isn’t even enough.
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belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY daddy boy! hehehe i hope you enjoyed your Buko and pineapple pies!
wait, WOW! i didnt know he dressed up for this. HAHAHA!
love, marianne.
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